By: Cuqui Gorman
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV
In 2003 my three-year-old son started having seizures…and our world turned upside down.
Fear and frustration dominated my life. There was no medical reason why he was having them, so I took it into my own hands to try and figure it out. I became obsessed with documenting every little action, environmental factors, food consumption …anything that could be triggering his seizures. My sole focus was on this situation, which caused me (unknowingly) to neglect the emotional needs of my two other children.
One day, sitting amid countless pages of documentation containing no answers, I literally fell to my knees. In that moment I prayed in a way I never had before, a way that was raw and true.
That was when I realized that I could not do this on my own; heck, I couldn’t do anything on my own. I honestly and completely surrendered this burden to God. After an exhaustive, but cleansing cry a strange feeling of peace came into my heart.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Although I didn’t know what the outcome would be, it was as if this huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders.
A week later my son’s seizures stopped as abruptly as they had begun. In fact, he never experienced another seizure. (He is now 17).
This experience taught me quite a lot:
- First and foremost, to PRAY! especially when it’s hardest to do.
- LET GO, LET GOD. Surrender your troubles and fears to God.
- BELIEVE. There is now no question in my mind or heart that with God, all things are possible. (Matthew 19:26)
This trial also strengthened my belief, perhaps as only love for our children can do.
Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, “I believe; help my unbelief!”
I also learned that worrying about what might happen is a waste of precious time that you will never get back.
And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
If the outcome is unknown, put your faith in front of your fears.
Meet Cuqui Gorman:
I am a mother to three awesome kids and married to an amazing man. I am a personal trainer and group fitness instructor. I love to be active and to play outside!